to my papa and mama

teehee!today is the last day of May which means that the day to start my new journey is coming soon.
I was so emotional in the last few weeks but i never thought that mum will see through her little young daughter until the day when dad sat down after his lunch to chat with me.Thanks dad,i had a very nice conversation with you.Actually when i was still a little girl,i was very scare of you.Perhaps you do looked fierce and strict,so i dare not to talk much with you.I always wanna to break through this gap and chat with you,just like any other father and daughter.However,in the last few years(start from form four),we started to have more topics to chat.Anything about movies,singers and songs.Ha ha, you know what? Friends of mine are jealous me because i have a very nice father.I am very happy that finally we have broken through this big gap.You told me your experience in Australia during your old days,the difficulties in studies.I'm so happy that you told me these.I felt like i am a grown-up and you are willing to tell me all these.Thanks dad.muacks!You keep telling me that not to worry about this and that but just to do my part well,then it's enough.and you'll do everything you should for me.when i heard from sister that what uncle had told her.I cried badly,i know that you had sacrificed a lot for this family.Your pressure is something that we could not understand.Sorry for can't helping in anything.Trust me,i will do my best and would not let you disappointed.Maybe i still cannot understand what you have been trying to tell me all the time,but tell me dad,i wish to know more about you,us and our family.

Mum,i know you do love me.I'm the youngest girl of you and i am leaving you soon.I know i am so stubborn sometimes and make you sad.I wanna to apologize for what i did,mum.You better take care of your health.You and dad are getting older and tired everyday. I know you always nag me is for my own good.But is quite annoying sometimes.ha ha,sorry for saying that.Mum, i know you loves us but you never show it or saying out but we feel it^^ love you mum! I know you want me to be the one that you feel good and i never deny the good of this job but this is not exactly what i want.I mean i want something more which can more contribute to this affluent and our family.sorry for didn't listen to you.But don't worry,i will know what to do mum.and i always love you.

chapter one

hey there ^^
yup,this is my blog-stories of mine.
ha ha, actually i also don't know why everyone also has a blog.
can they really write everything inside?
i mean without any contradiction?
and at the same time, making no one feel angry?
what is the true meaning of a blog?
can anyone please tell me??

All i wanna do now is to improve my English and
i wanna to get my confidence back.
perhaps it's been a long time that i keep staying in home.
i got no confidence anymore and i scare to speak English with stranger too.
i can't pronouns well.
i was shocked when i heard the words came out from my mouth,
ewww~~disgusting you know?

hey hey hey jing~!! please wake up girl
you got no more time to waste.
stand up!improve your english and make yourself confident enough again to face the public..
come on,girl!
you can do it!!
yup,i can do it!! bless me..